HEART OF FAKIR AND SHELL OF RESPONSIBILITY

hiI am Dr Jitesh J Bhatt. B.H.M.S.I am doing homeopathic practice since last 7 years. in terms of my knowledge every day I discover the things which I was not knowing. so my life is reality revealed each day. and everyday I discover the reality which i know has one thing uniform. and that uniformity is that knowledge of the things unknown. I teach, because that is the only way of learning I know. I am spiritual in nature I beleive that god is one and he stays in the heart of we human being. And to me human life is an option where in I AM and my ultimate success lies in LET HIM BE ME. I am roamer, reader and i love life. Sometimes i am fearless and sometimes not. I have little adventurous attitude, sometimes i drive fast sometimes i slow,[ i have tested the speed capacities of my bicycle, my bike , my scooter, my car]. i have escaped death by thin line too. I do not take risk but speed thrills me. i am born in maharashtra , brought up in rajasthan, studied in rajasthan and gujarat. in reality when i became a homeopath i did not know this was the path which will become main pillar of my life. I had taken admission into homeopathy as i did not get admission anywhere. but as i started studying homeopathy it became the part of my life. I had finished my course in 1999. And i started working in my father's clinic and started practicing homeopathy there. It was working in the small town sagwara of dungarpur district in Rajasthan. And now I am in ahmedabad and running my clinic in ahmedabad.
as i am telling about myself, money is a mean to me to fulfill the quest of life. I am not greedy but I like that money should be plenty so I can fulfill the basic necessities of life. I have been a pampered child in my childhood and in reality still i am highly pampered and thus I could not ever have been serious about money. Daily morning I think that today I shall be more planned and focussed about money and daily by evening I am really easy about it. So my way of life and principles of life and rules of life, they become too much for me many times. the only funda of life which appeals me is capacity to give love and warmth. so many times I am the man of world and many a times I forget my address. I have one son and one wife. My wife is a nice simple lady. ours is an arranged marriage. the day I got married in my mind I had only one question , mai shadi karke kya karoonga [ what will i do after marriage and what will i gain from the marriage. ] As such money does not attract me , beauty does attract me but it has to be inner beauty. the outer beauty or beautiful face is not always the need for my happiness. the beauty has to be internal. before marriage i had almost ten 50% affairs [ so simple 50% of my side]. but many a times i pretend to be simple and again that had been an inherent habit and when i pretend to be simple I behave as if I do not know what I need. And this habit is bad , but always good things follow after bad things. So my life has its own ups and downs but again the good learning of life I had if one learns to live as one is the life follows him. and to the moment on lives on so many external principles the life becomes principles.
I like to say I have the heart of the gypsy or a fakir but i have a shell of a responsible man. And my life is oscillations between the two.